"You're here now which means you can stay another day, you can stay the day after that and you can stay as long as you need to become your own success story."
Whether it's self-harm, eating disorders, PTSD, or suicidal thoughts you need to do your best to avoid triggers. As soon as you feel yourself slipping into those thinking patterns stop the video, close the book, shut off social media I know that it's hard but you need to do what's best for you. If it is triggering turn it off.
I know that exercise may be the last thing on your mind right now but, it might be exactly what you need right now. I'm not saying run a marathon or anything like that but a simple walk might help you clear your mind. It also releases endorphins, serotonin, and dopamine which all can help you feel a little bit happier.
Even if you feel alone you never will be alone. There are many people who care about you being alive they may not be in the same space as you but they are only a phone call away. If you don't have a person in your life who you feel like you can talk to call the Suicide Prevention Hotline 1(800)273-8255 in the U.S or one of the International Suicide Hotlines